The S Word

Ashamed of what I've done

And haven't done

And promised would be done

Ashamed of what I've become

And didn't become

And promised not to become

Ashamed of the hurt I've caused

And the love I could have shown

But didn't show well enough

Ashamed of my thoughts

The self-possessed thoughts

The selfishness that closed you out

Ashamed I waited this long to change

To get it right, hopefully

To learn to live properly

To love properly

Ashamed I've wasted so much time

Time that mattered

Now it will matter

No shame, no longer

I'm sorry and I promise

are so inadequate

But the time we have left

Will be what we remember best